here is what i know

i know we are scared that if we aren’t watching close enough our boyfriend will disappear or die. clearly this is some kind of trigger, however much it is based in reality. sounds like a mom one. or maybe it’s a distraction from something else. or related. or a manifestation. or all of the above or some or none.

we want more than anything the alice in wonderland barbie doll. we found her for $27, the lowest anywhere. but it is a no say the adults. we just don’t have that kind of money. but *she* is such a great doll and her *dress* is so wonderful. what a bitch wanting things can’t have bitch want die kill her kill her kill her kill her.